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haley
Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
United States
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and I don’t care if I live or die,
because I ain’t ever going to no other side,
there ain’t no heaven and there ain’t no hell,
but I am a sinner so it’s just as well
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LupusCor010 Featured By Owner 3 hours ago  Hobbyist General Artist
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TheWolvenAngel Featured By Owner 18 hours ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You are worthy of love, happiness, and comfort

You are a human being with human needs and human faults 

Your feelings are valid, your existence is warranted, and the love given to you is justified

Take care of yourself, you are just as important and deserving as the people around you

Treat yourself with respect, offer the same kindness to yourself as you do others, make peace with your demons

Try to do something nice for yourself today, be it rest, a reward, a privilege, or something nice you have been longing to do 

You matter

I love you <3
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TheWolvenAngel Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
you ever get so deep in thought that your body sort of goes into autopilot and all of a sudden youll 'snap back' and have no idea where you are or what you are doing but you realize that you are still doing what you are supposed to???
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TerraSwolf Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i prefer to be as aware of my environment as possible
so no
besides, these days my activities require my full attention
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TheWolvenAngel Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
oh 
cause that happens to me frequently 
the thing is I still do the thing I was doing
one example is clearing out weeds in AC
I faded out and looked back and I had over half of it done already heheh
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TerraSwolf Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
seems nice when youre doing monotonous work
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TheWolvenAngel Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You are strong, you are capable, you can make it

I believe in you wholeheartedly, I have nothing but faith and confidence in you, and I know you can make it through 

Everything will be okay, no matter how hard things get you can endure through, grow from your trails, and experience true happiness

Things are okay, you are okay, we are all going to be okay 

I love you <3
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TheWolvenAngel Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Just because you make mistakes doesn't mean you are a failure

Just because you have violent impulses doesn't mean you are a bad person

Just because you are broken doesn't mean you are worthless

Just because you cannot save one doesn't mean you cannot help anyone at all 

You are valuable, you are loved, you are more than your faults and vices, and you mean so much to so many

You are goodness, you are not the hate you have for yourself, and you are not irredeemable or useless

Your father is wrong, he was and continues to be wrong about many things 

I love you <3
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TerraSwolf Featured By Owner 7 hours ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
no, lee
he was right
hes always been right
and I'm gonna end up just like him
angry bitter drunk and alone
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TheWolvenAngel Featured By Owner 5 hours ago  Hobbyist Digital Artist
No he was not

I cannot speak for other people, obviously, but I can account what I know and my own experiences
You've helped me so so SO much over the years
You've helped me face my demons, held my hand through hard trails in my life, and gave me companionship, advice, and a shoulder to lean on 

I shudder to think of the crippling loneliness and how far back as a person I would be if you never came into my life
You helped me understand and cope with my gender, you brought out the best and worst parts of me and helped grow because of it
I would be a shell of a person, perpetually going round in round in circles, with no drive, no muse, no escape from my mediocre surroundings and life

Not to mention I absolutely would have not been whole if not for you
You hold a great piece of me, a piece I could never obtain or replace without you
You hold a part of my very soul 

You make me better, you make me want to get better, you may not have wiped any tears or taken any blows for my physically
But you were there, you are always there for me 
With absolutely no exaggeration, there has not been a single day that has passed in the last five years that you have not been on my mind
Not a single one

You are my muse, and if that is not helping someone, I really don't know what is

But lets move away from me
Lets look at some of the people around you 
Like your mother 
Of course you are not, and you cannot be, every single aspiration she has for you
But you are still her golden child, no matter what you do 
You have helped her through the abuse of your father
Taken wonderful care of your younger siblings
And continue to make her proud
Every mother has concerns and aspirations for their children
Which can lead to fear, and in both of y'alls cases, anger
But she loves you for you, wants what is best for you, and could not bare her life without you
You were meant to be hers for a reason

And then there is Ashley
Do you know how many people I have met and known that would have taken in a girl from a situation like hers?
A near absolute zero 
Not just that, but taken care of her throughout that whole time?
I am not going to lie
I myself would have thrown in the towel and not been as nearly as patient as you have
I would have had more than a handful of snapping moments as well
And that is what Ashley needed 
Was you 
With both the good and the bad
She needed you to help her grow as well 
If someone was perfect she would not have learned any lessons
If someone was worse God knows where she'd be
She needed you 
And you sacrificed and pushed yourself to meet that
How is that being useless?

You sent Max your binder, you've stood up and helped Camille out many times,
you ran yourself ragged trying to please Dot even though she was the one truly being selfish and unkind
every one you come in contact with you give nothing but respect and goodwill towards
You've helped so many, I am sure there are more I am not even aware of
And each one of us would not be any the better without you
Some of us would actually be worse off if you never came into our lives 

You are here for a reason
and its not for bad things
You mean so much to so many, and that is not a mistake or a coincidence
You are useful, you've helped out many people, you are worthy of love


If nothing else you will never be alone
I may not have control over your drinking
but I gave you my word
As long as I am here you will never be alone  
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